Speculative Moments

Those crazy days you get, when you start to think about the various aspects of your life, that just aren't quite perfect, occur far too much for me at the moment. (Surely not Emily, you have loads of Uni work to be getting on with...)

My  reflective days are always filled with thoughts of love, the right thing to do, am i being played etc etc. I encountered someone the other day, who I knew and have known for a long time, and they started up conversation - as you do. But looking back on it, after the moment passed, I realised I was being played with - just as a person.... no romantic notion or sexual intentions, just being played with. I didn't like it much. I was mainly bothered by the fact that i didn't see it. Normally that sort of thing I see a mile off, and play harder and win. (That makes me sound big headed, but manipulation I can do, when I want to.) Clearly I haven't played games for a very long time, and although I love that I used to be awesome at it. I do not want to do it anymore.

This definitely means that I am going to find single life more difficult, but I don't want to be anything but me, and if a relationship is gong to work, they have to know me for me right? Might as well be honest at the start.

In three months time when I find this method isn't working I may try new tactics.... But until then...

love love love for you all...

N.B - to the player (who prob doesn't read this) mu ha ha. I will win! No spite intended.