Upheaval

Isn't it bizarre that in only a couple of weeks, a month, two months. Your entire life can be flipped upside down, changed, only to then later be ripped apart along with your identity and preconceived ideas of your soul.

How can you pick yourself up from that?

You just have to. Somehow.

Night In...

It is Fireworks Night officially and I am in my house. Alone. I am good with this, gonna catch up on my Christmas present making (yet another year where home-made gifts are venturing out). My Fireworks celebrations are tomorrow, with a few friends, nice and lovely and sweet.

Plus I can see lots of fireworks from my window and they look lovely. So excited about Blackheath Fireworks tomorrow, makes me silly excited! I love the smell of them, and how everyone gets wrapped up warm and trying to hold sparklers with gloves... it is just wonderful. I love Summer so much.. but Winter has its awesome moments and this is one of them. Also unlike New Years it isn't bigged up too much and so it usually is a pleasant evening.

When I was little my family would always get invited to big ol' Bonfire Parties for Bonfire Night and it was mainly because he would do the BBQ while we all shivered watching Guy Fawkes burn on the Bonfire and Catherine Wheels fall off trees etc etc.

I did just hear a whole family go "ooooo. Ahhhh" this made me giddy.

Anyway.... Happy Bonfire Night people. (Be Safe)

Love n Hugs xx

It seems that there is never a time when someone close to us is not suffering in some form or another. A lot of my comrades lately have been going through difficult times and my heart breaks for each and every one of them. It is worse when I feel that I cannot be of any use whatsoever.

A lot of the time my sympathies are turned into discipline, a very Get A Grip attitude (GAG - according to Misha). This is where you simply need to deal with it. Whatever it is. Give yourself a kick up the arse and sort it out. Moping around won't help anyone, and will probably just make you fall into some maddened downward spiral of doom... being lost forever. I have done that one. Took me about two years to form some sort of ladder to clamber back up that spiral. I do not advise it to anyone.

However sometimes my empathy takes over, and I truly feel for my friends. I hate when I cannot help and even words cannot comfort in some situations.
If I could save everyone I care for from pain, I would spend my life doing it, I hate it.
Bring back the superhero...

Big Love -  Ems x